wants vs needs

time and time again I proven to myself that I can manifest stuff, however, sometimes I am blinded by desire.

today I was again reminded of this.

I'm learning to play an acoustic guitar towards the goal of playing an electric one.

recently I've had the urge to acquire an electric guitar and going down rabbit holes when researching.

so many options to choose from and I don't know which way to go.

I want something good
I want something within my budget
I want something damage free

I want...

I want.

I keep searching the used equipment sections on Marketplace and Craigslist.

I see something I like
I research the item out
repeat

I do this process over and over again, but never pull the trigger.

this morning I did a quick search and I see a package posted up only 5 minutes ago... two guitars and an amp!

each of the guitars represent the two styles I am deciding on, the amp completes the package... so what's the problem?

the price

it wasn't too high, in fact it was too low!

so I contacted the seller and told them I'll come by in 90 minutes to check out the setup.

then I proceeded to do some research on the guitars and amp.

I looked up specs, details, compared photos, learned the models, learned about manufacturing differences, construction methods, differences between brands... I had a massive amount of evidence that the package was a great deal!

that took me an hour and I'm smiling from my discovery!

as I start my car I receive a text from the seller informing me that he's selling the setup to his buddy who just saw his ad.

"sorry! thanks for your interest."

I stared at these words for a while.

it would have taken me 25 minutes to have gotten to him to buy the gear.

I spent twice as long to convince myself to take action.

I ask myself "what was I afraid of?"

instead of beating myself up like I usually would, I see the moment for what it is.

a lesson.

a reminder to take action when the oppourtunity presents itself, because it is what I NEED right now and the time I spent "researching" is only to appease my WANTS.

missing out on this oppourtunity stings
but I'm aware that something big
is coming my way.

and to pay attention!

because everything happens for a reason.

#chasingbutterflies